can we find ourselves?

So, my first true stab at my intellectual self.I just got off the phone with a good friend of mine, and I find myself now in thought about where I’ve been over the past several months. I’ve been busy, very busy in fact, the kind of busy where at the end of the day you wonder what you’ve been doing. I’ve definitely been too busy to read. My friend reminded me of this tonight, as we shared our stories of the past few weeks of our lives. About a month prior to my super busyness I started reading Blue Like Jazz, by Donald Miller.  He has a couple of really good quotes that I could use to serve my purpose, its a great book and I hope that I can finish it soon.

Anyways, he says in the book  ”If he(satan) can sink a man’s mind into habit, he will prevent his heart from engaging God.” My friend and I were talking about a bunch of stuff, but the real important thing that he flipped the light switch on was how, often we get so busy doing the things that we love doing that we lose our intimate connection with God. Yea, I love God and I am a christian but i have been the farthest thing from close to him. I have been serving hand in hand with great leaders and men of God, and all along still not been connected with God. I bought this Message-NASB Parallel bible, sweet bible got a great deal on it but its spent more hours collecting dust then it has been read. I did start re-reading the book of Job about 3 weeks ago, but i think I did that for 3 nights maybe.

 I find myself amazed that I actually have to own my phrase of the month, “the endless circle of screwing yourself over.” I’ve been there… a lot. I’ve discovered that there has been more to my business then even I had realized. I have been hiding from God. WHY? I’m not entirely sure, and thats probably for another blog. For now, I think I’m going to start with some quiet time and prayer. Memorizing  the bible isn’t the end all, but staying connected to God might just be all that matters.

  Jeffery

God always knows where we are. The question is can we find ourselves?